It’s time for Me Made May, I love the idea of having an entirely Me Made wardrobe. A wardrobe that fits and is uniquely me. The idea of posting outfits and modeling them feel narcissistic, though I understand it doesn’t have to be that way. It’s nice to see real people wearing things that they made, not just the vintage wearing community or the super seamstress who makes a dress a day, normal people living real lives and wearing normal clothes. I like being accountable, it helps me with follow through, but I don’t want to feel compelled to do something right now. So maybe next year?
Right now, I have a primarily store bought wardrobe, in the last 3 months I have bought more clothes than I did in the previous ten years. Why? Mainly because I was unhappy. My whole life feels different without Duke. I am going out more, I go to Door 54 for the Monday and Wednesday movies, to the symphony, to concerts, and out to lunch or breakfast with girl friends. Things I didn’t do a lot of when Duke was alive. The last couple of years we were going out less and less.
My house is totally upside down, I feel like it’s an uphill battle to do anything, so I chose easy. Right now I am trying to find myself. I used to be part of a couple, now I’m just me. The last time I was single I had 3 kids, now those kids are grown. Things are just different. One of my friends calls retirement, a chance to reinvent yourself. I don’t need to reinvent myself but I do need to define who I am.
It’s not exactly retail therapy, in my 25 years of retail I saw too much of that to want to go there. Trust me you can’t find happiness in a shopping spree. However, to be honest,I would rather make a new outfit from scratch than alter something and the idea of creating a new wardrobe from scratch was overwhelming. My wardrobe was so ill fitting that it was depressing. Nothing really fits, a lot of it was worn out, and most of it didn’t look good on me. Black is no longer my friend, maybe taupe or charcoal, but no head to toe black. I lost 12 pounds while Duke was in the hospital (I’ve gained most of it back unfortunately) and my stuff was already needing altering before that happened. Combine that with my going blonde- More on that in another post, maybe. My hair is a work in progress, I have a great haircut btw.- I just felt like I needed to do something now. I didn’t spend lots of money, I don’t have lots of money, I didn’t really buy a lot. I made what is known as a capsule wardrobe where almost everything combines with everything else. Now I am ready to start sewing again to fill in the gaps. The fabric selection right now isn’t helping, it seems like if I like the print, the colors don’t work, or if the colors are right, I can’t figure out what to do with it. It’s time to really look at my fabric stash and plan. Planning and forethought are not my strong points, being creative and improvising are more my style.
So I won’t be signing up for Me Made May. I decided to move my sewing studio into what used to be Duke’s office, it’s bigger though the light isn’t as good. Once I have a new place to sew, then I will see what I end up doing.